This last week has been a difficult one. Lately I’ve felt a little bit like things are breaking all around us. I can’t go into all the details, but there was a time on Saturday when I actually though “seriously? what else is going to go wrong”. The reality is that it’s not all that bad and even though I’m pretty sad, I have felt a lot of peace and calm. I was sitting in the office of one of the pastors that I work for and he reminded me that I can choose to look at life like a tragedy or an adventure…so I guess I need to start looking at it like an adventure! On Monday we signed the papers to back out of buying our house. I was am so sad about it. I know that it just must not be the right time, but it was still such a sad moment. And I feel so shallow for being all weepy about something so material, but I just had started to picture our little lives there…I had started to plan a garden, thought about what color I would paint different rooms, picture what it would be like to live there as our little family grew…sigh.
However, in spite of the sadness, I’m so thankful for the place we are living now. It may be a trailer, but at least it’s cheap. And the reality, I think it’s good for us to be forced to be especially tight with our money once in a while. It reminds us that we can and should be more frugal. Jeremy I want to the store today and managed to spend way less than we normally do! Anyway, not much else to say. I have several things I know I need to post about, but I just haven’t been feeling like it. But I take my finals on Friday, so maybe after that I’ll take some time to catch up. In the mean time, be praying for us (and especially that Jeremy would find a job!).